Here’s the thing about me and a spiritual practice – I never seem to keep one going for longer than a couple of weeks. At least, not one that anyone would recognize as such. You know, sitting down in the lotus position, placing my hands in the perfect mudra position and chanting “oooohhhhhmmmmm”. Actually, come to think of it, I’ve never done that. Let alone for weeks at a time.
There have been times when I’ve had a spiritual practice that was very meaningful for me – praying daily, coloring mandalas, or some other thing that gave me a touch point during my day. But none of them have stuck long-term. Usually I’ll start something and be very committed to it for a little while and then, for whatever reason, a day will come when I forget… or don’t have time… or just don’t want to. And once that fateful day has happened, it’s REALLY hard for me to get back on the horse.
But here we are at the end of March and I’m still committed to sitting down and writing in my Miracle Journal every day. There have been a few days when I haven’t had time, so the next day I have a “Two Miracle Special!” The week I went to Toronto I only posted once or twice, but I got started again as soon as I got home.
And here’s the big one – there are days when I just don’t want to write, like tonight. And I do it anyway.
I think that is the hallmark of a profound spiritual practice for me – I do it even when my brain is saying I don’t want to, because somewhere in me I really DO want to.
Writing yesterday’s post took a lot. It was running in my head all day and wouldn’t let me go until I wrote it down. The writing process took a lot of energy. When I was done, it left me feeling wrung out – but in the best possible way. Today I don’t have a lot of mental or emotional energy to go to that deep place, but I wrote anyway. I can be proud of myself for simply showing up.
It may not look like anyone else’s version of a spiritual practice, but it works for me. Thanks for sharing it with me. I’m glad you’re here.