Let’s just call a spade a spade. There are a lot of things I’m good at, but dealing with my finances is not yet one of them. I fantasize about the day when it will become less stressful, but today…well, not so much.
I’m not sure how this month got away from me, but when I started balancing my checkbooks and paying my bills tonight it was kind of shocking. And it got more shocking as I went along. To the point that I started to hyperventilate a little. A tear might or might not have slipped down my cheek. Things were looking pretty dismal. I started pleading with God, myself, my checkbook, and anyone else who would listen.
As I was clearing transactions, I started to click the check mark next to the $8.55 charge from the grocery store…but something seemed wrong…so I looked more carefully…and EUREKA!! I had entered the charge as $855.00 rather than $8.55. Thank God. I can’t even be mad at myself for the data entry mistake. I’m just so grateful to have found it and corrected it.
In other news…this morning I got to take a tour of the building I grew up in, an old country inn that’s being stripped back to its very bones and refurbished to its original glory. It was an amazing journey back in time. Everything looked so much smaller…because I’m so much bigger than I was even at 10 when we left there. Who says you can’t go home again? Because music was such a big part of my experience growing up there, I found myself wondering what kind of music they’ll play when they open the restaurant and bar.
One other cool thing – I’ve been feeling an energy around me the last couple of days that’s new. It’s definitely male. It shows up mostly when I’m driving in my car. It feels like this man is getting closer and I’m excited to find out who he will be.
This evening I went to the grocery store and there was a cute guy in line in front of me. I’ll admit, I checked his hands and didn’t see a ring. But I was quickly brought back to reality when I saw what he had in his basket – two bottles of wine and two boxes of tampons. Clearly not single. But it got me to thinking – he showed absolutely no sign of discomfort at purchasing a couple boxes of tampons. It’s going on my list of desirable attributes – a man who is secure enough in his masculinity and his place in the world that he can buy a box of tampons without squirming. Normally I wouldn’t think twice about seeing this guy in the store today; but with this new energy that I’m feeling around me, I’m going to call it a sign that whoever he is, this Amazing Man is getting closer and he’s better than I can even imagine.