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The Big Reveal

A few eagle-eyed readers have asked over the last few months if something was going on that I haven’t been talking about. The truth is…yes.  I have been keeping something to myself.  A tiny seed of beauty and joy.  Something that I wanted to hold close so I could give it air and sunshine and water to see what would grow.

And that tiny seed has grown into a flower of rare beauty and joy.

My friends, I am so happy to share with you that over this summer I have been falling in love.

How many posts have I written about wanting to find love and partnership?  How many revelations have I had about clearing space in my life to allow love in?  And now… it is here.

We met near the end of June in the way that so many people do these days – online.  He sent me a “wink” which I would normally ignore (if you can’t be bothered to spend the time writing an actual email, why should I take you seriously?)  And yet there was something about this man that was different.  He wrote something about going into the coal mine of life and coming back with diamonds.  And he lived in New Mexico – why not write to him?  It wasn’t like I’d get invested with someone so far away, right?

Wrong.

Within a day we were writing novellas to each other – emails so long that we had to split them into various parts because the online service we were using couldn’t handle the full length of our important thoughts.

Three days into our emailing, something terrible happened – my friend Evie was injured in a fire.  I told him about it and he was so lovingly supportive.

A week after our first email, he asked if we could talk on the phone.  I was thrilled…and terrified!  What if this beautiful email exchange didn’t translate well to the telephone?  That has happened to me more than once.  But I needn’t have worried.

The moment I heard his voice, I felt like I’d come home.  We talked for two hours and it felt like we’d known each other forever. He invited me to visit him in New Mexico and I immediately said yes.

And then another terrible thing happened. Two hours into that first phone conversation, I found out that Evie had died.  There are no words to describe the next few hours.  He stayed on the phone with me and seemed to know exactly the right things to say.  When I wanted to talk about her, he asked me to tell him stories so he could get to know her too.  When I needed to be distracted he talked about…I don’t even know what.  I just know that he provided a lifeline for me that night.  Our first phone conversation lasted over five hours and we’d already covered the full gamut of human emotion – from highest joy to deepest grief.

I have told him many times that if he had come into my life for only those few hours to help me get through that night, it would have been enough of a blessing.  Everything else is icing.

In the last three months, we’ve each spent time in each other’s homes.  He’s met my family (who love him!)  He’s introduced me to his friends.  We’ve racked up so many hours of long distance communication that we’d both own stock in the telephone company if it weren’t for Skype.  He is the quintessential Amazing Man.  He even wants us to write a book together!!

He has seen me at my craziest and he still loves me.  He seems to love me just for showing up and being me.  It’s still a little hard for me to wrap my head around it.

He values his privacy and it’s important to me to honor that, so I won’t name him here.  Instead I’ll call him Mr. Blue Eyes (or MBE for short).

Is he my one-and-only?  My forever partner?  I don’t know yet.  But for the first time I’m willing to be okay with not knowing and to stick around to find out.

I love you baby.  Thanks for choosing me and letting me choose you.

About the author

Leah Carey

Leah Carey is the Chief Miracle Officer of The Miracle Journal, where she writes about the large and small miracles that happen in her life every day. She is a life coach, speaker, journalist, freelance writer, and lover of life. In all of those pursuits, she works with people to identify what’s already right in your life so you can build an even more joyful and fulfilling daily experience from that foundation. You can find her on Facebook, , Twitter, and YouTube.

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  1. Lisa LaPlante

    I love you my dear Friend! I am so excited that you have come to place to “share” him as you’d put it before.

    I LOVE hearing/seeing/reading how happy you are. And I can’t wait to do the big meet & greet. ;-)

    All my best to you both!
    <3
    Love,

  2. Susan M

    What a wonderful miracle! Thank you for sharing this with us. Wishing you and MBE many wonderful moments ahead.
    Xoxo my friend.

  3. Cheryl Collins

    Good for you!!!

  4. Eileen

    Wonderful! I’m so happy for you Leah.

  5. Wendy Isidoro

    Leah – that is so wonderful. May you fill each other with the light of the sun, the essense of the moon and the sparkle of the stars! Love is so wonderful, isn’t it? ;0)

  6. Leah Carey

    Thank you everyone for your support and well wishes!!! It feels so good to finally share my joy with you. :-)

  7. Amanda Sundquist

    SO WONDERFUL! I love the picture with helmets in front of the New Mexico sign.. the way it is cropped it looks like it says “New Me” how true for both of you! Cheers to Leah and MBE! I can’t wait for you to come to NM again! Craft night at my house!

  8. Amanda Sundquist

    I am so sorry, I didn’t mean to put a name to MBE.. Can you delete this previous comment? I apologize if I have hurt any feelings, or abused my privilege to knowing both beautiful people.

  9. MBE

    No Worries Amanda! Thanks for the comments. I love the way you have befriended Leah. Hugs from both of us to you and your handsome man.

  10. PJ Hamel

    Thumbs up, Leah. Love IS the answer… XXX

  11. Jill

    I love this post and even after one evening I knew MBE truly is the quintessential Amazing Man; a perfect match for the quintessential Amazing Woman! Congratulations to you both for putting yourselves out there, not being afraid to take risks and be vulnerable – and allowing the miracle to happen. xoxo

  12. Leah Carey

    Thanks Jill! :-) Sending you a big hug and looking forward to seeing you soon!

  13. Mal

    I have been away and just catching up on emails – I am so thrilled for you! You & MBE are wonderful news You’re a very sweet couple – best wishes for much continued happiness.

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