Tonight’s guest post comes from Leta Hamilton. I cannot tell a lie – it brought a tear (or six) to my eyes when I read it:
As I write this, I am holding our three-month-old fourth son. After our third, my husband had a vasectomy. Two years later, I was into personal fitness again – kickboxing, jogging, eating well – but I wasn’t losing any weight. Very busy with 3 children already, I did not put all of the “signs” together until I started feeling movement. Why would I? My husband had received the all-clear from the doctor ages ago and it had been over two years since the procedure, so….
This baby is a miracle because he taught and continues to teach this family how to love deeper. When I first discovered I was pregnant again, I had to overcome the emotional shock that this was happening. Then, as a family, we had to come to terms with what an unexpected baby would mean for our lives. Furthermore, I had to ground myself in the reality of what a new baby would entail for me personally.
All of the struggle to come to terms with the “why” – especially when I have close friends and family who have spent years struggling with infertility – was a spiritual journey in itself. I had to transcend feelings of guilt, shame, injustice and anger in order to arrive at an emotional place within myself where I could love this baby with the love that ALL babies deserve. I also had to come to terms with having a fourth son when initially the one bright light of it all was the hope that this would finally be our girl.
He came into this world on October 28th, 2011 at home and delivered completely naturally. He is a miracle. One that continues to bring us deep and awesome joy. He has given me the irreplaceable gift of learning to love and accept myself more than I ever thought possible.
Leta’s website has the totally awesome tag line “Finding Zen amid poopy diapers and laundry piles.” :-) She says: “It is my mission, and my passion, to focus our attention on the greater context of parenting and to open the conversation about what we can learn from the innate wisdom and natural spirituality of our ‘Zen Masters in Diapers.’”
She has published a book titled “The Way of the Toddler: The Craziness of Modern Motherhood and the Spiritual Lessons I Learned from My Zen Masters in Diapers” and has a weekly radio show, The Way of the Toddler Hour.
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