What a week.
Last week I wrote about some deep processing and healing that I’d been through as a result of a book I’d read, Rita Gigante’s The Godfather’s Daughter.
At the time, I thought I’d worked through the bulk of what had come up. I thought that particular ride around the roller coaster was done.
Turns out, I was just on that little straight-away before the car starts climbing to an even higher peak and an even steeper stomach-dropping ride.
The last week has been extremely intense and emotionally exhausting. Today I sat with a friend and shared some of what has been going on. I told her that while I know this is really important and deep healing that’s going on, I feel like I’m falling down in other parts of my life. I haven’t been present for some friends who have needed support, and I haven’t been doing a particularly good job at work.
My friend took my hand and responded, “That’s exactly the way it should be. Sometimes you just have to let everything else go for a little while.”
They were exactly the right words at the right time. It was exactly what I needed to hear to forgive myself for the judgments I’d been making about myself. Thanks Elisa.
I know some of you will read this and worry about me, so let me say this – there is absolutely nothing wrong. I am certain that the intensity of this experience is in direct proportion to its depth and healing power. And, knowing how things go in my life, there’s a pretty good chance that it will end up being a book at some point. :-)
On another subject, a reader sent in this picture saying that her daughter had made it and it makes her smile. I can see why! Thanks Cathy! :-)
Today’s miracle: True friends are people who show up to say exactly the right words at the right time.
Rollercoaster image found here.