Recently I found this in a bag of baby carrots:
As I’ve mentioned a few times in the last month or so, I’m going through a period of deep introspection, processing and healing.
When I saw this carrot, it seemed like the perfect embodiment of what I’ve been doing: going straight the core and pulling back all of the layers that I’ve piled on top to keep myself safe (or so I thought!)
But look at that core! It’s perfect whole and healthy. Which I have to believe is just how my core is.
This introspection has taken every bit of energy that I’ve had for a while. I’ve had to write lots of emails to people saying, “I’m sorry that ________ has fallen through the cracks as I deal with some stuff in my personal life.” I pride myself on being efficient and effective, so I don’t like writing those emails at all. But it actually feels good to have sent them – I’m putting myself and my healing first. And people have been, without exception, very supportive and loving.
I don’t know how much longer this will take. I don’t know how much more digging around in the core of the carrot I have to do. But I know without a single doubt that it’s worth it. And I’m incredibly grateful to be surrounded with so much amazing love and support.
And for those of you who have asked after my toe, thank you so much for your well wishes. It is getting much better. It still doesn’t look too pretty, but I can walk normally again!
Today’s miracle: I love it when metaphors show up in interesting and totally unexpected places!