My mentor and dear friend Rev. Nancy often admonishes me that in the movie of my life I get to choose whether I want to be in a horror/suspense script or a romantic comedy script. And, wouldn’t you know it, when I call her, it’s usually because I’ve chosen to reread scenes from the horror movie.
This week I’ve had an opportunity to watch myself choosing between the two.
I have a prayer partner who I speak with three mornings a week. We generally spend a few minutes catching each other up on the important stuff that’s going on, and then we offer our prayers for the day. The calls are usually 10 or 15 minutes, but occasionally when we’ve got something important going on, we’ll spend longer talking.
Sometime last week my prayer partner said, “I have some things I want to talk to you about, but I don’t have time today.”
In the absence of any information other than the dreaded phrase, “I want to talk to you,” I immediately made up a story about how I had done something terribly wrong and she no longer wanted to be my prayer partner. Narcissistic much, Leah?
Every time I had that thought, I had the opportunity to calm myself down and remember that it’s not always about me; I was once again making shit up; and I might as well wait until we talked before jumping to any conclusions.
I had to have this conversation with myself at least a dozen times in the last week, but the point is that each time I REMEMBERED! I didn’t go off half-cocked into the world of horror and suspense films. Instead, I put my brain on pause so I could wait until the film was actually released before deciding how to respond to it.
This morning, we finally had time to talk. As it turns out, what she wanted to discuss had absolutely NOTHING to do with me and everything to do with an issue that she’s working through within herself.
Oh right. It’s not always about me.
I am so grateful for this opportunity to see the lesson so clearly!
Today’s miracle – Remembering that I have the power to choose – and I choose COMEDY! (Now would someone wonderful please help me turn it into a romantic comedy?)