I’m kind of stumped for what to write about tonight. It’s not that there isn’t amazing stuff going on.
There is SO much amazing stuff going on, I can’t just pull out one single thing to focus on and create a coherent narrative out of. It’s like a huge ball of yarn and I can’t find the end.
Instead I’ll tell you about the thing I’m letting go of.
On Jan. 1, I joined a group of women to work on releasing weight. I was completely invested in the process and I had a plan that I thought would work well for me – a series of new habits that I wanted to install in my life slowly over a period of time.
Then, on Jan. 3, I got sick. Really, REALLY sick (Read the post - Releasing and letting go). Some of you may remember me writing about being in bed for 10 days. And then another couple of weeks of recovery after that. I lost about 6 pounds in the process, but it was definitely NOT the best way to go about it!
Once I was healthy, I planned to join the group again. But then I dived into the book proposal and video for Hay House and that was all I could focus on (Read the post - Will you love me even if I fail?). There was no room in my head or spirit for anything else. So I put the weight release group off until I’d turned in the book proposal.
But when the book proposal was done, I had joined a class for women thought leaders that took all of my attention (read the post – I believe).
And now that has ended, I’m taking a branding class and have two more classes on the horizon, plus several weekly phone calls with brilliant colleagues to support each other to greater heights.
Today I finally admitted to myself – my weight is not a priority for me right now.
Would I like to lose 20 pounds? Absolutely.
Am I willing to do the work to make it happen right now? No.
And I know this is true because there are some other things that I’m willing to commit myself to heart and soul – building my brand, building my business, rocking my own world. And I can do that no matter how much I weigh.
A couple hours ago I sent an email to my weight release group bowing out. It was a hard thing to write. I feel a little sad and a little guilty. And a lot relieved. Because I’ve finally been honest with myself.
In order to be present with what’s most important, I’m letting go of what’s less important right now.
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Today’s miracle: Letting go of things that aren’t top priority so I have more room on my plate for things that ARE top priority.