How is it possible that a whole WEEK has gone by since I’ve written? That just doesn’t seem right. And the truth is that things are likely to be a bit spotty this week as well because I’ve got a big deadline at work and I’m a bit behind.
But I did want to give everyone an update on where things are here at The Miracle Journal. Many of you have been holding space for me as I created, submitted, and then waited on word about my book proposal with Hay House Publishing. The contract was announced last week and I didn’t get it.
And here’s the truth – I was bummed. I cried for a few minutes. My ego took a hit because it would have been so nice to be the “chosen one.”
And a couple days later I was over it. I’m amazed to see how much I’ve grown over the last few years. I had the opportunity to go through this roller coaster with Hay House once before, and it was an entirely different story. Last time, I was devastated and used it to re-convince myself of my own unworthiness (you can read about it in this post, The miracle of dreams deferred, which I wrote about a year after the fact.)
This time, I recognize that they were making a business decision; I understand why the woman who won is a smarter financial bet for them at this moment; and I’m not taking it personally. This time I understand that it is not a reflection of my character, or worth, or the value of my work in any way. It’s simply not the right time yet.
#2 – Don’t take anything personally.
#3 – Don’t make assumptions.
So now it’s on to the next thing. I’m still going to write my book (in fact, I started it this weekend!) I still have a very clear vision of where I’m headed. The path isn’t quite as clear as it would have been if Hay House had picked me up this time around, but I’m still ready, willing and able to walk it.
And I’m immensely grateful and humbled by the support that I receive from all of you. THANK YOU.
Today’s miracle: This or something better.