Hello miracle watchers! Long time, no talk.
Thank you all so much for your ongoing messages of support and love. They mean the world to me! Being with my mom through her cancer treatment experience has been both challenging and wonderful, and I’m sure I’ll have lots to share about it in the months to come. Right now, though, I still don’t have a ton of energy for things other than the basics.
But one thing happened last week that was so startling that I just HAD to write about it! So here goes…
Have you ever had a piece of clothing or jewelry you had to get rid of because of the memories it evoked?
Maybe the earrings from your ex-husband that remind you of the painful breakup instead of the happy years.
Or the swimsuit that is two sizes too small and reminds you of how your body used to look.
Or maybe it’s the beautiful scarf your sister gave you before she passed away, and rather than bringing you comfort it reminds you how much you miss her. You don’t want to get rid of it, but you have to put it away for a while.
For my part, I had to get rid of my a sweater that was my ex-boyfriend’s favorite. Every time I put it on after the break up, instead of feeling uplifted at how sexy he thought it was on me, I felt deep sadness that things didn’t work out. It was so painful that I no longer wanted to see it hanging in my wardrobe. I also have a “boyfriend box” with the pictures and tchotchkes that remind me of him – I don’t want them gone for good because there are some meaningful things in there, but it will be a while before I can look at them without feeling sad.
The point is this: clothing and objects hold memories. They have the power to evoke strong emotions. In other words, they hold energy.
Want to know what happened to make me think about this and how it relates to my time with my mom?